Saturday June 27, 2015
Sydnei had a pretty good night the first night in the hospital. We met the Dr. Chandler when we woke up that morning. He came in to explain that she had something on her kidney. They were going to do a CT scan on Sydnei. Kevin went down with her while they did the CT scan. He said she was such a brave little girl when they did it. We waited and waited for the results to come back on what they had found. My mother, dad, our preacher, and associate preacher was there when they came back in the room and asked Kevin and I to step out of the room. I knew right then and there that something wasn't right. I immediately felt myself start to cry but I held it back. We went into another room where there was a computer for Dr. Chandler to show us what they had found. The doctor explained what we were looking at. Sydnei had a huge mass inside her right kidney. Kevin and I both started to cry. He told us that the mass was so big that it had busted through her kidney. There were also some lymph nodes that looked like they were affected also. The mass was a Wilms tumor. They were afraid that the tumor had spread into Sydnei's IVC and her aorta. Those are the tubes that leads up to her heart. They said that it might had made its way to her heart. They wanted to do an ecocardiogram on her to make sure that her heart and her lungs were not affected. They said that the Wilms tumor was more than likely cancer.
Kevin and I did not know what to do. We just sat there for a while and cried. We asked what the possibilities were and what we could do. They were not sure at first. There were two options: One they could take the tumor out and do chemo and radiation or Two they could do chemo first to shrink it and then later on take out the tumor and then resume chemo.
We went back in the room with Sydnei, my mom, and our pastors. Kevin had walked out to talk to our pastor while our associate pastor stayed in the room. He was entertaining Sydnei. I could not control the tears. They just kept flowing. Sydnei seen that I was crying and she asked me, "Mommy why are you crying?" I broke down even more because this precious little girl had no clue what was about to happen to her. All I could manage to say was, "baby mommy just gets upset sometimes." We ended up going out with our pastor to talk to him and to pray. I have to say when I found out that Sydnei had a tumor and that she more than likely had cancer I started to question God. God why would you do this to this precious little girl? What have I done for this to happen? Am I a good mother to not even know that this was growing inside of my daughter? Did I do everything possible to protect her? There were so many questions that I could not answer. All I could do is pray. I knew that God had a plan for our family and for Sydnei. I knew that he was doing this for his glory. I did not understand why but I knew that he would always be here for my family.
They then did an ecocardiogram on Sydnei. She did an awesome job as usual. During her exam she started to sing like she always does. But this time it was different.
Sydnei singing Proverbs 21:1
They also did another ultrasound on her kidneys. The tumor was pushing on her IVC. Sydnei was in such good spirits the entire time. We waited on the test results to see if there was any of the tumor that had spread to her heart and her lungs. The doctor came back and told us that there was not any sign of the tumor that had spread to her heart and lungs. We were to thankful that it had not spread. The cancer doctors also came in and talked to us about when they did surgery they would put in her port. A port is where they would give her chemo and radiation. For the rest of the day we had lots of visitors and told everyone what was going on. There was nothing else we could do so we just spent time with our sweet baby girl. We did not know what the plan was and we did not know what God had in store for us.
Sydnei and her uncle Brent!!
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